Prompt: Believe: What did you believe in this year? Did your faith help propel you forward? What do you want to believe in throughout 2012?
I could go through the very long narrative of religions and faiths that I’ve tried out but logic or belief or some part rang hollow for me. Because I do think faith and belief are very good things to have. To have something in your heart that gets you through the darkest of times is important. I cannot say I believe in people, per sae, because there will always be someone that crushes something, some part of you. It might not even be their fault, it’s human nature. We are imperfect and that’s a very, very good thing.
So. I cannot say with out some doubt in my heart that I believe fully in God.
I cannot say that I believe in Jesus as a Savior or any other Saviors because I look at the world around us. I do want theology thrown at me, so please don’t. There is too much suffering. There is too much sadness. There are too many who turn a blind eye and harden their hearts to what goes on in this world for me to really believe that they have a God in their heart.
However, I have known great people of many faiths. I have known great Christians, great Buddhists, great Jedis, the list goes on and on. What makes them great, to me, is that they choose to be good people. What I believe in, what I have faith in is being a good person. Nobody is perfect. We all dip our toes in schadenfreude, we all have things that make it hard to look in the mirror. But we can be good.
We can help others with the gifts that are our own. My friend, Brotherton, doodles. On a particularly crummy day for me (and he didn’t even know it) he sent me a seriously hilarious doodle and it made me laugh, cheered me up, and my whole day got better. Another day, a friend brought me a big huge chocolate cake out of nowhere. It made for a delicious week.
These are tangible, physical examples. The thing is this. We make choices and we can choose to be happy. We can choose to be good. We can choose to give and be kind. Or we can choose the latter. My faith is in being the best that I can, (do not scream that in army screech), and doing right by others. If I do wrong, then I want to know so I set things right. I am not perfect. I teach my children that all religions hold equal importance and teach equally good things, in their own way. But what matters most is simply being good to people.
I care that I’ve done right by people I love, myself, and the world every day. I try hard to. I might not always but I try. It’s the best faith that has worked for me. Other than be a glitter obsessed weirdo.
In every man sleeps a prophet, and when he wakes there is a little more evil in the world.
Emile M. Cioran
S ara Rose